Thoughts Unleashed.

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Stillness..

Tuesday morning. 9.09am.

I've just lost and failed to close another deal. A huge deal actually. This 'potential' customer takes in big bulks like a huge whale. If only....if only we managed to match his pricing, I wouldn't have to worry about my quota every month anymore. A few thousand pieces a month and continous order...Lost...

Lost two big deals in a space of 2 weeks.

And now I'm back to square one.

When I was studying, I always have difficulty scoring and ace-ing my papers. Sometimes I felt that no matter how much effort I put in, I couldn't grasp the concept completely. I had no 'ownership' over my studies. That's why I decided to take up something which I felt I was confident in. Something which I thought I already had it in me, all I had to do was to nurture it. Turns out it doesn't work that way either.

Sighs. Sometimes God uses our strengths to teach us humility and dependence. Usually it's the things that we're not good at that we depend on God the most. And the things we're good at, we just brush God aside and say "God it's ok, I can do it solo."

I'm still waiting for my first big break...

My new colleague jz sold RM 200k this month. He came in the same time with me.

Maybe you'd say I'm expecting too much too soon.
Nah. That's not the case anymore.

Something's wrong somewhere.

It's true for sales we need a 'never say die' attitude. But we'll never go anywhere if we have zeal, but no improvement in skill and technique. It's like dropping into the same hole everytime, climbing up, and not knowing why you dropped into the hole the first place.

Still waiting for so many things..

Patience is a harsh lesson.

sighs.

On a different note, a big thank you to all who came last weekend. You know who you are. It's a joy to share music with you guys. Really appreciate it.


Ja.

Monday, November 20, 2006

Welcome to Hotel Grand Joshua-nental.

Yea it's a rip off from Grand Continental. Joshua-nental. HAHaha...ha...ha......
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*syok sendiri mode*
more of Joshua-mental huh.

We've already have 2 guests bunking in since the place "opened".

For this week, starting tuesday, we've been fully booked till the weekend. We strive to provide excellent services to keep our guests happy and satisfied. Services include good and free parking spaces, comfortable, and cooling sleeping places, take-all-you-want food services, magazines and books to read, and best of all, enjoyable hosts. HAHAHAh...

We don't charge at all. Maybe for gals a peck on the cheek. And for guys a teh tarik.
hehe. Just kiddin'.



Maybe I was serious.



It's a joy for me though. Spent a fortune already on the house. Gonna get broke soon. :p
Wish I could do more.


Time to go now. It's gonna be a crazy week. Do drop by the chiller plant gig.
Ya know, sometimes I just can't find the words to say. So I just give a smile. It's just to say, I'm happy that you're around.

Cheerioz everyone.

Ja.

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

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Feeling damn p*** now.
After 10 rejections you feel down.
After 20 rejections you feel freakin' p***.

I'm feel like an idiot. Colleague's just sitting here in the office everyday making thousands wherelse I have to do co-calling. Have to introduce myself, and ask whether do they need my products or not. Probably he did all that s*** some time ago, and reaping all the rewards from the groundwork he did. Probably laughing his head off seeing this newbie doing all this dirty work. How come I'm the only one doing all these?

I have a 5 figure quota to meet every month. It's not even a low range 5 figure, and that's just to break even. Nothing's reaping rewards yet. So far I've met so many people, and haven't closed a single deal with them. No enquiries. Everyone's just looking for my colleague or boss.

Small companies are nice and all. But it sucks too. You're unknown. Small fry. Worst, we're trying to compete with the established brands in the market. And Boss is giving me pressure. After 2 days in the office, he's started chasing me out already. Nobody wants to meet me for the moment la! Nobody's interested. What more me wasting time and money just to pass my brochure?

Everyone seems to think I have the best deal as a sales engineer in this company.
If I don't talk much about my company or work, doesn't mean that I'm having a blast here.

I've had it for today.

I need a breather. No wonder people smoke. Feel like having a drag now.

Friday, November 10, 2006

Remember, remember the 5th of whatever..

It's a friday evening! The time is now 6.06 pm everyone~~! Time to clock or punch out from your work, pull down your pants and party~~!!

Speaking about pulling down your pants, and also to honor the title of my posting today, :D, I shall dedicate this piece of news that I'm about to copy and paste below.
May we ever remember the courage, boldness and also the jackassness of this brave but incredibly stupid blok right here.

LONDON — A 22-year-old man suffered internal injuries after lighting a small firecracker he had inserted into his buttocks, paramedics said Thursday.

The incident took place Sunday, when Britain celebrated Bonfire Night, traditionally marked with fireworks to celebrate the Guy Fawkes' gunpowder plot to blow up Parliament in the 17th century.

The man suffered burns and other unspecified internal injuries in the incident in Sunderland, 275 miles north of London.

Katherine Shenton, a spokeswoman for the North East Ambulance Service, said a caller had phoned in that the victim was bleeding after the firecracker exploded.

Several of the man's friends recorded the incident on a mobile phone. The blurry images show a man bent over with his pants down and a white flash as the firecracker explodes.

The Times newspaper reported the man is a soldier who recently returned from Iraq.

*applause, applause*

Apparently serving the Queen in Iraq makes you wanna shove firecrackers up your @ss.


Hey, hey, it's friday, people!! Time for some laidback jokes and remarks. Hm, let's see what I have up my sleeve..

Fun Things to Do at a Drive-Thru
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1. Drive through the drive-thru in reverse and let your passenger order.
7. When asked if they can take your order, tell them you are just window-shopping and drive on.
11. Demand to speak to the manager. When they come on, complain that you did not like the way the employee said, "May I take your order?"
12. When asked if they can take your order say, "Why, can I take yours?"
19. Just stare at them when you pay and get your food. Don't break your stare.
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I chose the top 5 only. The rest are just lame though...

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Drinker, Smoker, Homosexual
Three guys are in a doctor's office. One is a drunk, another's a smoker and the third's a gay guy. The doctor tells each of them that, if they induldge in their bad habit one more time, they will die.

Outside they pass a bar. The drunk says, “I don't care if I die, I need a drink.” The drunk goes into the bar takes a drink and, sure enough, he drops dead.

Meanwhile the smoker and the gay guy are walking along. Then the smoker spots a lit cigarette on the sidewalk. The gay guy looks over and says, “If you bend down to pick that up, we're both dead.”


want some more jokes? get them here.

Time to go now. Happy Hour time.

Nah. No happy hour for me. Expecting a quiet weekend. with lotsa cleaning up the house to do.

Hmm..maybe I could just force myself to laugh whenever I spot a dirt to clean on the floor.

*forced laughter*
HAhah...HAHAHAHAHAHa...HHa...ha.......h.......

*smacks forehead*

...I'm so lame~...

Have a nice weekend everyone. Come drop by my house and laugh together if you're free la.

Ja.

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

Square One

Kudos to Mel for such a great job. She even printed the real poster!! MEL KENG!!

The day's coming nearer. We're so not prepared. Trying our best to pull this off nicely. It's our debut. Oh, erm, fyi, Oneted's drummer is me. :P Come if you're free ya. :)

Anyway, just some updates. Shifted into my new place already. It's only like 70% done and already we had quite a few visitors. Really cool. Excited to see the potential of this place being turned into a hangout place. Maybe I should rename the house into some cool name, like Josh's Cave, or House of lurve, The Lepak, or something..heheh...oh oh! Got The Curve already hor, we'll call it The Straight..WAHAha...

..ok ..lame..lame..yes yes..I can see your 'L' shape fingers..

I like my room... to those who have visited already, I've JUST finished clearing up my room ok? so the room you saw before not counted...blek..

My room's got the 'music corner'..my favourite part....there's my cajon there..my accoustic...a bunch of drumsticks..my cymbals..my double pedals..and cm's electric guitar..yup...pretty much my favorite part of the room...

And there's the balcony, which I plan to convert it to a nice 'chill out' place...place some nice deck chairs there...just imagine sitting there...with the cool nice breeze gently caressing your face..dim and warm orange lights to make you feel at home...and just norah jones at the background soothing your restless heart after a whole day's work...coupled with a nice cool beer.. erm I mean drink..it's enough to give you a taste of heaven..hAhah...who wants to join me? :P

Back to topic. I put 'square one' as my title. Yea I guess we're just back to square one. At least for me. At least it's the 'correct' square one. I hope. It's out of obedience actually. I dare say that. To reach out through this way..

Music.

I did ponder upon the power of music. How influential can it be? How can a 3-5 minute song be so powerful? It is just entertainment? It it just to relax? A de-stress? It is any different from dance? A sketch? A movie? A Sermon?

Reaching out through music. Is it an excuse to play music? Will it attract people? Will it, ever have any effect on anyone? Or will it just be 'another song'? Something we just wanna 'syok sendiri?'

I really don't have the answers. It's such an unknown territory. I don't know what I will face. I don't know whether will we phase out. Or will we survive. Or worse still, will we be a laughing stock at the end of the day. But all I know is, the decision to go on is stronger than anything I've ever felt. I've based a few decisions in my life before on this kind of prompting I believe God gave, and really thank God I made the right decisions.

Music is powerful. I watched clips where 5 people on stage playing. And thousands of people come. They travel hundreds of miles, sleep on the outside, pay a fortune just to watch their favourite band play and sing. yes it is powerful. People wouldn't do that 'just for entertainment'.
Songs can drive a person to suicide. So can it save a person. It can change a person's life. How powerful can it get? I haven't witness a 7,000 - 10,000 spectator dance concert or sketch before, maybe there is, I dunno, but for a music concert, it is a common thing.

It's a new beginning. Let's hope this works.

Ja.