Random Thoughts

I found out that at least there's a handful of ppl who actually read my blog. Haha. Till now I thought the only person who reads this blog is me. nyahaha.

Random Thoughts. They come and go as they please. Some vanish after a while. Some remain in your head for a long time. So into it that I decided to jot it down. Maybe after jotting it down it will go away..? Let's try and see..

I had a sudden 'situation' when I imagined it was already the 3rd sem. When I tried imagining it, a feeling crept into my heart. It was a feeling of reluctance. And more. I felt that I haven't done enough. It's like doing something already but yet somewhere in your heart you feel that it's somewhat not complete. Hmm..


Surprised that 'masquearade' didn't draw a crowd which I thought it would. Met another hometown friend, who joined FES. She tagged along with Annette last Tuesday. Man, I'm meeting my hometown church friends all in 1 week? First Zhen Xin, then her. Chun.


Woke up yesterday morning coughing. Spat it out. Hey, is that blood? Oh cr*p it is. Tasted it again. YUp. Iron. I'm coughing blood now? Since when? How come my throat not sore wan? This is serious.


Falling sick jolted me from my mental slumber. Yup. My walk with God was slacking, my studies was sliding. I was oblivious to my surroundings. Apparently I tried putting it all away behind my back. Yup. If you know me well, sometimes I need someone to come around to kick me in the a** to wake me up. I'm up, I'm up. :D


I've taken health for granted too long. Recovering ain't easy after not falling sick for so long. Was groggy the whole week. at least for last week. how'd you guys go around so easily?


I found out ( long time ago) that I know a lot about BGR stuff. I've read books, heard CD's, went for conferences. Heck, I can even write a book about it myself. But tell ya something. I've no idea and not much experience when it comes to how to court a girl. Do's and don'ts, the consequences, what to look for, i'm pro man. Go court a girl you like? BANANA. BLANK. @_@
Oh yea, and another thing. Confidence? I've no problem about it, for MYSELF. But for a girl to find anything attractive about me? KOSONG. If I were a girl, I'd see myself as totally unattractive. I see nothing in myself that can make a girl attracted to me. I've got nothing. NIL. HAHa. Don't get me wrong i'm not indulging in self-pity. I have confidence in myself. But other people to see it? ......ok....I need help. :p


I really pray that I can do something I really love when I grad. I don't wanna reply when someone asks me how's my work, " erm..ok lar." I hope it's not like right now, when I'm just flowing along with my course. I wanna say ' I'm enjoying every minute of it.'


You know what's the hardest part of having a cough? It's the inablility to laugh. Yea, it's like you laugh halfway then *COUGH COUGH!!* then the joke's not funny anymore.


Having high hopes and flying dreams about this year's mission trip. I look at the team last tuesday when we first me, and I see problems in communicating and us working together as a team. But then again, I 'm not a pessimistic person. I see difficulties, but I also see a way out. I'd prefer to focus on that.

Some people talk a lot. And they dream big too. But they are unwilling to work for it. Dream will always remain a dream unless you put your hands into the plough. Feel it with your hands. Close your eyes. Now open it. your dream is now a reality cos you felt it with your hands. :) I'm talking to you, dude. You know who you are. Friends don't give you sweets all the time. They hand you vitamins which taste bad. Get the picture?


I could go on and on.....and on....and on.....

Letting go is not always bad.

..and on.......

People said I've grown thinner. At least from 3 different people.

My favourite dream is having a candle-light dinner with the person(girl lar) I love most. Accompanied by some slow jazz, romantic music. And after we jz dance. slow and intimate. No words.

SiGHHhhHHhhh......

ok it's the music playing on my pc now( steven curtis chapman-I'll take care of you) which is messing up my head.

But really, it is my favorite dream. :)

2 sems from now a huge chapter in my life will be closed. I have a feeling I'll cry in our final CF meeting. Hmpphh!!~ STAY STRONG BRO. BE A MAN. HMppHHh!! :D

Prayer Lighthouse is not turning so nicely. Everyone's so busy. Sigh.

Ok I really have to stop. Man, I'm on FIRE. :)) Hey it work! I'm not thinking abt it anymore...Oh wait....it's stuck in my head again. Maybe food will do the trick. Lunch time.

Astalavista, baby.

Cheerioz.