Well I got engaged. :)
Sometimes I like to think of Engagement as being "engaged" or "locked on" to all the responsibilities of becoming a family man. Just like a bird which builds its nest with dry sticks and leafs from scratch, suddenly thoughts and plans which we used to think "far away" or for "older men" land right in the hands which you used to hold the ring in proposal.
Nothing wrong with it. It's enjoyable. And you realize, that to go through all this plans and to do life together, love is the most important thing that holds both of you together. Without it, all the plans stand on sinking sand, waiting to crumble anytime.
I guess the difference between me and other engaged men is that I still wanna be a rockstar.
Recently attended Saosin concert, and heading with my band to Paramore in March.
It's been a while since I attended a concert. Being it local or foreign.
and it does something to you, everytime I see someone rocking it out on stage, every single time, at every different stage in life.
every time I watch a concert on youtube, it gives the same chilling feeling to me too.
the challenge for me, is being an engaged rockstar wanna be.
I dread the day when I have make a decision, if I ever have to, give up my rocking dreams. I don't wanna wait till I'm too old, with creakin' bones, or have to go back to a kid right after every concert, to do this.
I'm at this stage in life where something's just waiting to burst, to explode. Being it in my career, my dreams.. I feel like a raging tiger, being locked up, with all the energy, just waiting for the key to unlock and unleash the person I am.
I shall wait.
I shall wait upon the Lord.
Till then, I shall enjoy the view from here.