What If's and Maybe's
Today I had a chance to take a detailed tour around USM with a friend I made not long ago. We went round almost every building of the place and she managed to explain lotsa stuff. Man, the place is HUGE. So many buildings for everything, and the hostels looks awesome. 2 to a room, unlike ours. Really impressed, especially with their new hostels, which makes our cyberia looks like a cheap kindergarden. haha.
I started thinking....
Initially, before I made up my mind for coming to MMU, I was really geared for local uni's. I targed UTM, worked my way through SPM and my co-curiculums, for the required activities to get in. But I was ony offered advance diploma, so I scraped it and came to MMU.
Thing was, I started to ask God, why did He place me here in MMU.
Cos, after spending 3 months here, and going around the local Uni's I really felt my life would be totally different from what I am now if I were to be here at penang, USM.
Maybe, because of the culture here, I would have been more hardworking, and probably I'd get better results, results that I'm proud of.
Maybe if I was here before, my campus ministry would'nt been much different. After talking to my friend here, they have a strong CF here with an regular attendance of 100 people. They have big evangelistic meetings, and have strong support from FES. Really glad that they're doing great.I'd probably would be very much involved too.
Just another what If's . Maybe I wouldn't be single too if I was here earlier. Dunno. Don't really wanna elaborate on that. Just some feeling I get. hah.
Everything's so self contained here. Everything's provided and convenient. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying I regret not coming here, or I really feel at home here. It's just that I felt that my life maybe, would be better if I'd come here in the first place. But, God decided to put me in KL, cyber. And now I'm trying to find out why...what is it that God wants me to experience that He has to place me in KL, in a environment where I needed time to get accustomed to.
I started thinking...and questioning.....
And still ...huh..I can't find the answers...
Maybe He wants me to be in Acts Church. Maybe He has big plans for me in that church....
Maybe He wants me to get used to KL life.....maybe there's where my future lies...
Maybe my future has something to do with the friends I have now...
Sighz. There can be hundreds of 'maybe's...
Lord it's really frustrating that I don'tknow the answers. It's really frustrating that I felt that I could have a better life if I was here in the first place. Why did you bring me somewhere else? What is it that you want me to experience? My only comfort is that You are Lord over my life, and you know best what's good for me. Lead me on Lord, and stay with me.
Well, let's put that subject aside...
Don't wanna make a big entrance...But just wanna say that I'm coming back to cyber, finally after more than 3 months away this coming Friday. Can't wait to meet some people. ;) I don't know whether I'll come back a different person. If yes, I hope it's for the better, not the other way round. This 3 months have truly enriched my life with many things. It's my final semester. My final semester as a student. The end of my colorful uni-life.
I start the final semester differently this time. Funny huh. Usually I don't really care what to achieve or have any goals starting of semesters. But this time it's so totally different. My goals and visions are crystal clear. And I know what I want. Hopefully I can achieve those.
Just met this new guy from the church here. So sad I can't meet up with him anymore. Man, so happy, cos he's a total punk-rock-emo band fan!!! He loves yellowcard, blink, sum41, good charlotte, my chemical romance, switchfoot, all these stuff man!!!! Even recommended fall out boys to me. He knonws a lot about every band members, their songs, what background they come from, how they film their MTVs!! MAN!! Had a nice 2 hour chat. He's real informative. And he's like 28 and working as a IT specialist at some company here. heheh. Finally found ' ka-ki-lang'( same member) here man!! Oh yea a BIG THANK YOU to the EPCC church people here who belanja-ed me at this farewell dinner!! Really had a great time~:D
K la. I've been going on and on like an old man. Getting old d. Till I see you guys soon, ciaoz and take care.
* looking forward to seeing you*
I started thinking....
Initially, before I made up my mind for coming to MMU, I was really geared for local uni's. I targed UTM, worked my way through SPM and my co-curiculums, for the required activities to get in. But I was ony offered advance diploma, so I scraped it and came to MMU.
Thing was, I started to ask God, why did He place me here in MMU.
Cos, after spending 3 months here, and going around the local Uni's I really felt my life would be totally different from what I am now if I were to be here at penang, USM.
Maybe, because of the culture here, I would have been more hardworking, and probably I'd get better results, results that I'm proud of.
Maybe if I was here before, my campus ministry would'nt been much different. After talking to my friend here, they have a strong CF here with an regular attendance of 100 people. They have big evangelistic meetings, and have strong support from FES. Really glad that they're doing great.I'd probably would be very much involved too.
Just another what If's . Maybe I wouldn't be single too if I was here earlier. Dunno. Don't really wanna elaborate on that. Just some feeling I get. hah.
Everything's so self contained here. Everything's provided and convenient. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying I regret not coming here, or I really feel at home here. It's just that I felt that my life maybe, would be better if I'd come here in the first place. But, God decided to put me in KL, cyber. And now I'm trying to find out why...what is it that God wants me to experience that He has to place me in KL, in a environment where I needed time to get accustomed to.
I started thinking...and questioning.....
And still ...huh..I can't find the answers...
Maybe He wants me to be in Acts Church. Maybe He has big plans for me in that church....
Maybe He wants me to get used to KL life.....maybe there's where my future lies...
Maybe my future has something to do with the friends I have now...
Sighz. There can be hundreds of 'maybe's...
Lord it's really frustrating that I don'tknow the answers. It's really frustrating that I felt that I could have a better life if I was here in the first place. Why did you bring me somewhere else? What is it that you want me to experience? My only comfort is that You are Lord over my life, and you know best what's good for me. Lead me on Lord, and stay with me.
Well, let's put that subject aside...
Don't wanna make a big entrance...But just wanna say that I'm coming back to cyber, finally after more than 3 months away this coming Friday. Can't wait to meet some people. ;) I don't know whether I'll come back a different person. If yes, I hope it's for the better, not the other way round. This 3 months have truly enriched my life with many things. It's my final semester. My final semester as a student. The end of my colorful uni-life.
I start the final semester differently this time. Funny huh. Usually I don't really care what to achieve or have any goals starting of semesters. But this time it's so totally different. My goals and visions are crystal clear. And I know what I want. Hopefully I can achieve those.
Just met this new guy from the church here. So sad I can't meet up with him anymore. Man, so happy, cos he's a total punk-rock-emo band fan!!! He loves yellowcard, blink, sum41, good charlotte, my chemical romance, switchfoot, all these stuff man!!!! Even recommended fall out boys to me. He knonws a lot about every band members, their songs, what background they come from, how they film their MTVs!! MAN!! Had a nice 2 hour chat. He's real informative. And he's like 28 and working as a IT specialist at some company here. heheh. Finally found ' ka-ki-lang'( same member) here man!! Oh yea a BIG THANK YOU to the EPCC church people here who belanja-ed me at this farewell dinner!! Really had a great time~:D
K la. I've been going on and on like an old man. Getting old d. Till I see you guys soon, ciaoz and take care.
* looking forward to seeing you*
1 Comments:
bro, why think of what if and maybes? are you so sure that you will have a better time IF you were somewhere else? or sure that you'll not be single IF you were there?
heh...look on the bright side man. you have us as friends. you have so much that you MAY NOT have if you were somewhere else. you have so much. Thank God for it :)
ok enough of motivation...
dude miss you man..hope to see you soon
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