Wrestle

After talking to a friend, I find myself back to square one. An issue which I sometimes day dream or fantasize about. It's a question which occasionally bobs into my mind, and I somehow settle it, only to find it coming back at me 60 miles an hour. Yea. You can call it a wrestle.

Everyone's looking for a side income. Or at least, have ever considered finding extra means to get some cash. Direct sales, MLM, insurance, yada yada..it's all on the A list. Part timers, I'm talking about.

Talking about it is one thing. But to really do it is another thing. Cos really, after all the time spent in the office, not everyone is really keen to spend their remaining 'relaxation' time ploughing their hands into another pile of work. Some may start on fire, give em' a few months time, and you'll find a punctured tyre. Cos it robs you of the thing that keeps you sane in this working world: Rest.Friends. Family. And some entertainment. The stress-busters.

But what if you could earn the extra dough doing what you like best?

Yes. The thing I wrestle is, to fill my pockets using my drumsticks.

An old friend I know earns a 4-digit income just by teaching the electric guitar part time. Yea,yea..He's my Ampify-mate, cool and guitar master ol' friend la. You know him. Was talking to him over yam cha the other day. Sure it is quite hectic for him, but he said he doesn't really feel the stress, cos it's his passion anyway. Even after coming home from a day's work of guitar teaching and engineering, he still feels that he needs to take up his guitar, and just jazz the night away.

So I thought, how nice it will be, if I could just perform somewhere. Maybe 3,4 nights a week. They don't pay so low nowadays you know. If I could pocket a few hundred bucks a month playing what I love, why not? Morever, I could further improve my skills without having to find a jamming studio. And maybe I could even find some more contacts for future projects. Who knows. Though I'm not like super keng, but I think I could juuusst scrape by the minimal requirements to play in these scenes with some brushing up.

Truth is, I have been offered this opportunity before. And the reason I say 'no' to it was...I wanted to serve God with the gift He gave me. I have been. And I still will. I really believe it is what God gave me, regardless of what anyone would say. I was born with a good sense of rhythm, and good arm-leg coordination. I remember my first lessons. I was 11 years old. The drums looked so freakin' big that time. It was taught by a person from another church. You see, my church didn't even have the drums during that time. We had to go to FGC to learn it. So it was down to me, and 3 more older friends I had. I was the youngest.
I aced that class. Creamed the others. I played the 8-beat all by myself at the first lesson when everyone was just learning how to hold the sticks. HAha. Ok now I'm showing off. sorry.

Anyways. The reason why I always said 'no', was cos whenever I played, and it wasn't for Him, and it doesn't matter how big or how small the event was, I always leave the scene feeling empty. Feeling hollow. And when people come up to me saying'Good show', I smile and say 'thanks' but in my heart I was asking myself ' What are you doing?' So. settled. Play for God. Period.

But everytime I bury the issue, thinking it's finished, my itchy eyes tend to wander again. And yea..this blog comes to posting lor. It's a wrestle. Do you know how the outside people look at us? Me and my friend didn't really discuss the issue, but it was written all over his face the other day.
' Get out of your church activities. It's taking too much of your time.You're getting rusty, your music is getting nowhere.'

I still got it under control. I know what I'm doing. Where I'm heading. Why I'm doing what I'm doing. It's just that sometimes this issue pops up once in a while like lil' pimple. And you can't help but wrestle with it all over again.

Hey, all this aside. It kinda surprised me, but I actually miss my life in KL. Just can't wait to get my life back on track. It was a good rest. Had plenty of time to think. As usual. :P

I'm coming back tomorrow. I hope. Fingers crossed. Seeing doc for the last time tmr.If it's a green light then I'll be 'home' for dinner. :)

Please excuse the sudden high amount of postings for the past few days. It's raining here. Diana Krall's singing the blues from my speakers. What can ya expect?

Ja.