Rock Bottom

This is it. This is the lowest I can get.

Really, really sad and low.

To announce every sales person's sales figure in public,
and to have everyone applauding everyone's achievements.
and to announce mine and then utter silence.

total humiliation.

and the figure is not right too. My figure is higher than what was announced.

for the first time since I made up my mind,

I'm doubting my decision for this career. Till now, have always believed that I am meant for this.

I have lost my confidence. I have lost all motivation.

I don't expect pity. I don't expect encouragement..
expectations only leads to further disappointments.

I shan't blog about work anymore. I won't make this blog anymore emo than it already is.

My car accident and saman ticket yesterday is not helping me get thru this.


thank you for listening. now let me be.

Ja.

The naked truth

We've been ...or maybe I've been so protected all my life that I was naive when I stepped into this world..and now it's hard to take ...the naked truth served on a cold hard dish..

correct me if I'm wrong from 'learning' these statements.

The naked truth is..

You can't expect anything from anyone. I'm not bringing anyone down.
It's just experience. The higher the expectations, the lower the fall. I'm not counting out friends, too.

The naked truth is..
You can't trust anyone. fully. only God I guess.

The naked truth is..
People tell lies. People tell stories.

The naked truth is..
No one's gotta help you but yourself. You'll just die if you sit there, moan and cry 'poor me'. don't expect anyone to come pull you up. again. don't expect.

The naked truth is...
You have to defend yourself. If people stabs you in the back, take up your shield and defend. Even though you're right, doing nothing and expecting that the 'truth will come out one day' is not gonna work, my friend.

The naked truth is...
results is all that count. People don't care whether you work for it or not. people don't give a rats ass about effort or time.

The naked truth is....
who cares about credit. if you do well it's expected. if you mess up, you're in trouble.

The naked truth is...
there are people in the world who won't like you. and they pick on you and you can't do anything about it cos they have more authority than you.

The naked truth is..
My life has become an option. In every aspect. It's just like sitting on a shelf along with others, and people come along and choose you if they like you or feel like liking you. And you're yelling ur ass off 'pick me!'.

I'm tired. sick and tired. But I can't be tired. Cos if I get tired, I'll be trampled on..

A heart that is fresh and new is tender. It's full of life. Ready to take on anything.

A heart that is burnt over and over again is covered charcoal. Black and rock hard. Insensitive.
Ugly and ruthless.

The secular and the sacred, huh.

Do tell me about it.