Testimony

I don't serve a dead God. I don't go to church every week, have fun, sing cool songs, and go back to yet another boring and normal week. My God is alive, my God is real and He takes care of me. I will prove it to you.

These are my testimonies for only just last week itself.

#1
It was a wednesday. Woke up late and realized that I totally forgot that I had to hand in a short assignment. I had totally no idea how to do it. Called many friends for help. A LOT. Out of 10, 9 had handed up the assignment. 1 left. I told God, if this fella had already handed up, I'm really in serious trouble. Please help me out. First call, no answer. Ok. Bathe first. Relax. 2nd call, and found out he hasn't handed up yet. He said he could help me out. Enough said. :)


#2
Thursday was gonna be Communications 2 mid terms. I took a look at my notes and they seemed foreign to me. Not that I haven't studied. It's just that my understanding power is not so strong as others. I needed help. Early morning before I headed off to the lib, I prayed that God will grant me resources in my studies. I said" God, grant me patience in understanding, wisdom, and resources to guide me." In the afternoon as I sat down staring blankly at my notes, along came Su Chen. ( Thank you Su Chen) . She sat down beside me, and obviously saw my horrified and ' I'm lost' face. She taught me. Later at night, she willingly gave me a few more lessons. It really helped. Thanks again, but thanks to You above too.

#3
After CF on Tuesday, me and boss sat down to watch an Interfaith cd they were selling. Quite interesting, until one of our housemates were strolling along. We called him to come watch, and he came to check it out. Later, because of that, we started to exchange opinions about our faith. We asked several questions, and he did the same. It was then we took the chance to tell about Jesus, why we believe in Him, and all about Jesus. I've been praying for a opportunity for such as this. The seed has been sown. We believe that God will continue the good work.


My testimonies don't seem to be mind-blowing or about awesome happenings. But it's just to tell that we don't need 'keng-chao' testimonies to share. God can be real even in our daily events. I pray for testimonies everyday. Obviously who would give me more of that if I don't even share of this small ones. Nah, not really small to me either. I pray that those who are reading this don't just play Christians but actually experience Him in our daily lives. My God is real. Is He real to you?

Testimony

God is alive!! He really is. I've prayed for Testimonies of God for a long time. I long to share about how God is real to me...and how I live my life with Jesus in me. Just now in CF, as Uncle Dexter was sharing about how God is our refuge...I couldn't help but recall what happened to me almost one year ago, how when I cried out to God, and at that moment I couldn't hear His voice, but now I know why He let it happened.

Almost one year ago, due to complicated matters, me and my housemates had to move out of our townhouse unit. When I first shifted in there, I had no intention of moving out again. Things were a little complicated nearing the end of our contract, and there were conflicts and storms brewing, things that involve people. It was hard, I cried out to God desperately for help. Friendships were really tested during that times, unforgiveness and misunderstanding were really clouding the whole picture. It was tension. A tiny spark can start a fire anytime. During that time I cried out desperately to God. Desperately. I remember in my quiet time that God did assure me a few times that He is in control, but I couldn't see any action being taken. I was waiting.....and waiting.....still..nothing positive came our way. At last we had to leave. But it was then God acted.

God opened the door such that we could move into our current unit, B1-6-5. Now I understood. Our house has become a blessing to a lot events of the CF. CG meetings, Bible Studies, CC's practices, mission trip meetings.....and many more meetings were held in our place. We've managed to bless the people by moving to this new place. Morever, we have full authorisation to use the facilities of the clubhouse since moving in here. ;) Before, very few meetings were held in our townhouse.

It's frustrating when you ask something or cry out something to God and all you hear is nothing, but sometimes we need to be patient and wait upon the Lord. Of course He hears our cries. Of course He cares. But nowadays we demand instant respond. We need to learn trust Him. I NEED to learn to trust Him.

I will continue to share about my testimonies with my Lord Jesus. I feel that what I believe in would be dead unless I continue to have stories, real life stories to share to my friends this year. And I continue to pray for more too.

Actstream

Sometimes when I look at myself, I'm surprised at being able to be in Actstream. I mean, just look at the team. It's really the best musicians around. The standard is there, the commitment level is just awesome. It's really the best example of a team of worshippers you can find. I take a look at myself, and I realize that I'm in the team!! I'm one of them. Actsteam leads the church into worship week in week out. Headed by Pastor Sandra herself. It's just a real priviledge to be part of it.

Maybe it's been a long time since I last played due to holidays and all. I played today for actstream vision casting and for this Sunday's worship practice. As I held my sticks, I felt in awe and intimidated to be surrounded by so many 'keng' musicians. I felt a sudden lost of confidence. But as sudden as it came, I felt God telling me to have faith in myself. To believe that I can do it. I shut my eyes, and gave my all. It was the first time I played so cleanly. Wonderful.

I remember in the past I used to take Actstream for granted. When I was tired, I dreaded going for Thursday's practice. I tried to find excuses sometimes to avoid going for long trips on Thursday nights. But today, and onwards, I dunno but I find myself started looking forward to practices, especially vision casting. I find myself wanting to get involved more in the church. I felt really warm inside when I saw so many of them turning up for the CC night event. It showed that they really appreciate MMU students and support us truly. I look at this church as an example of unity. I look at our pastor as an example of how to live my life. I wanna grow with the church. I pray earnestly that God will give me a job nearby in the future so that I can still serve in this church.

Pastor Sandra set a new set of rules and standards for Actstream during today's vision casting. For the first time, I agree with her in everything she set. It's called seriousness in serving God. It's called setting a standard to honor Him. Playing is a priviledge for me now. I treasure the weekend when I'm on worship. This is why one of the reasons I didn't make the trip down south today. The other reason is that I find myself needing rest. Mentally. Physically. What better place to find rest than to be in the house of God?? I woke up reeeally late this morning, and I turned my head, there was boss, still asleep. I glanced to the room across, JW still asleep. Then I realized, we are all mentally tired. Exhausted.

Psalms 23: 1-2

The Lord is my shepherd,
I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
he restores my soul.

My shepherd, thank you that I can rest in You.

Thanksgiving

I've lived so far. 23 years. Yes, it is 23. To all the people I've conned, so sorry about that. haha. You would do it when it's your time. I remember feeling down last year during this time, I was disappointed at not being what I hoped to be when I reach 22. But this time it's different. It's just Thanksgiving.

From the bottom of my heart, I say a prayer of thanks and appreciation to God for:

1.) Keeping me alive till today.
2.) My Family. Perfect.
3.) Provision. ' The Lord is my shepherd. I have everything I need.'
4.) Peace.
5.) Friends.
6.) Close Friends.
7.) Health.
8.) Love.

And most important of all, for being there for me when I needed You the most.